Dear You,
You never realize how much something affects your life until it's gone. When I started taking my mood stabilizer medicine the differences were so small and so slow that I didn't notice it. But it began to work. I became happier, less irritable and more confident. I would miss a day or two here and there and I could feel a little bit that something was off but not a whole lot. This past week has been really hard with my money situation I have none. And I have to somehow pay the rent in 2 weeks. So when I ran out of my medicine I figured I'd be fine until I can get the money to refill it, but that's a lot harder to do than I thought it would be. In the past week: my depression is creeping back in, I'm super irritable and everything bothers me, I'm grumpy, I'm not confident in anything I do and I have no motivation to do anything. After realizing how much my life has gone down hill just by not taking my medicine I asked my parents for money to go refill it and I get to pick it up tomorrow. I normally hate medicine but I have to say, I am so excited to be able to have it again and to live a little closer to normal.
Today I am grateful for the technology to create the medicines we need.
Love,
Christina
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Day 3
Dear You,
Well, it's day three. I decided that I was going to go to he's before midnight tonight. So I got all ready for bed and got in bed and everything then realised I haven't posted yet. So here I am. Writing to you.
Basically all I've done today is go to class and study. I have gotten quite a bit done though. One if my favourite places to study, oddly enough, is the Cougareat (the food court in the student Center). The quietness of the library drives me insane and every small noise distracts me, but there is too much that I can go do at home that will distract me. The Cougareat is perfect. I don't have to sit in silence but I can still work because I can't randomly get up and go wander around. Most people go to the library, I go to the good court. I'm weird I already know that.
You may think that this blog is going to be all about the people that in thankful for because it is day three and I am about to tell you another person I am thankful for. But I am thankful for other things too. Today just happens to be another person.
Today I am thankful for Jill. I am preparing for a test for the class that I don't understand at all. Everything is just so confusing and I don't know why anything is. So I made flash cards using the class online study guide. I have been trying to study it all day but I just can't seem to get it. So Jill came and spent a lot of time quizzing me using my flash cards so that I will do well. I now know the stuff pretty well. I'm pretty sure she learned as much, if not more than I did because there are still some that I'm shaky on but I'll get them.
After we studied we decided to watch Supernatural. If there's one thing you should know about Jill it's that she absolutely loves her Supernatural (*almost* as much as she loves Matt Bomer). She was ecstatic when I told her that I'd start at the very beginning with her and watch them all.
Jill is always there to help me. Especially when all I need is someone to talk to me and help calm me down. She is a great person to go to with your problems and she always has such great advice.
I love you Jill! And I look forward to spending a whole nother year with you!
Love
Christina
Well, it's day three. I decided that I was going to go to he's before midnight tonight. So I got all ready for bed and got in bed and everything then realised I haven't posted yet. So here I am. Writing to you.
Basically all I've done today is go to class and study. I have gotten quite a bit done though. One if my favourite places to study, oddly enough, is the Cougareat (the food court in the student Center). The quietness of the library drives me insane and every small noise distracts me, but there is too much that I can go do at home that will distract me. The Cougareat is perfect. I don't have to sit in silence but I can still work because I can't randomly get up and go wander around. Most people go to the library, I go to the good court. I'm weird I already know that.
You may think that this blog is going to be all about the people that in thankful for because it is day three and I am about to tell you another person I am thankful for. But I am thankful for other things too. Today just happens to be another person.
Today I am thankful for Jill. I am preparing for a test for the class that I don't understand at all. Everything is just so confusing and I don't know why anything is. So I made flash cards using the class online study guide. I have been trying to study it all day but I just can't seem to get it. So Jill came and spent a lot of time quizzing me using my flash cards so that I will do well. I now know the stuff pretty well. I'm pretty sure she learned as much, if not more than I did because there are still some that I'm shaky on but I'll get them.
After we studied we decided to watch Supernatural. If there's one thing you should know about Jill it's that she absolutely loves her Supernatural (*almost* as much as she loves Matt Bomer). She was ecstatic when I told her that I'd start at the very beginning with her and watch them all.
Jill is always there to help me. Especially when all I need is someone to talk to me and help calm me down. She is a great person to go to with your problems and she always has such great advice.
I love you Jill! And I look forward to spending a whole nother year with you!
Love
Christina
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Day 2
Dear You,
It may be past midnight but I still count it as Tuesday :) Today has been an incredible day. First I found out that I got an assistant design position for Pride and Prejudice that will open next March. Then a little bit later I got to go to Olive Garden with 3 of my best friends!
We all had pretty good things happening too. Nicole, well the Lord is taking her away from me for the next year and a half. I am so happy for her and I know that this is exactly what the Lord wants her to be doing. There are some people in Florida that are so ready to hear the gospel and hearing it from her will be the best thing that has ever happened to them. I'm not sure I want to share her though! The next year and a half is going to be so hard without her but I will make it through. I haven't cried yet, I'm not sure if that's because it just hasn't hit me yet or because I know I will see her again. Remember, It's not goodbye, it's see you later!
Ashley, I guess her thing could be that she's graduating soon! High school was tough, especially when you start getting to the end and all you really want is for it to be over. Remember to cherish the last few months you have because it will be gone before you know it and then you have to go out into the real world (and trust me, that's scary!)
Amanda's getting married! I am so happy for her! I loved hearing about all of her plans and how he proposed and everything. I can tell that she's so happy! And while others may think that she's still too young I think that she knows whats best for her and that he is absolutely perfect for her and she is going to make the most beautiful bride I have ever seen! You are amazing, Amanda! And I can't wait to see you on your special day!
Today I am grateful for the people and the opportunities that the Lord has put in my life to help guide me to where I need to go
Love,
Christina
It may be past midnight but I still count it as Tuesday :) Today has been an incredible day. First I found out that I got an assistant design position for Pride and Prejudice that will open next March. Then a little bit later I got to go to Olive Garden with 3 of my best friends!
We all had pretty good things happening too. Nicole, well the Lord is taking her away from me for the next year and a half. I am so happy for her and I know that this is exactly what the Lord wants her to be doing. There are some people in Florida that are so ready to hear the gospel and hearing it from her will be the best thing that has ever happened to them. I'm not sure I want to share her though! The next year and a half is going to be so hard without her but I will make it through. I haven't cried yet, I'm not sure if that's because it just hasn't hit me yet or because I know I will see her again. Remember, It's not goodbye, it's see you later!
Ashley, I guess her thing could be that she's graduating soon! High school was tough, especially when you start getting to the end and all you really want is for it to be over. Remember to cherish the last few months you have because it will be gone before you know it and then you have to go out into the real world (and trust me, that's scary!)
Amanda's getting married! I am so happy for her! I loved hearing about all of her plans and how he proposed and everything. I can tell that she's so happy! And while others may think that she's still too young I think that she knows whats best for her and that he is absolutely perfect for her and she is going to make the most beautiful bride I have ever seen! You are amazing, Amanda! And I can't wait to see you on your special day!
Today I am grateful for the people and the opportunities that the Lord has put in my life to help guide me to where I need to go
Love,
Christina
Monday, March 25, 2013
Day 1
Dear You,
Before school started I was so nervous because I didn't know what living away from my family would be like and I was terrified that my roommates would hate me or think that I was annoying. I was scared that we wouldn't get along. Especially the person that I had to share a room with. I was so scared that things weren't going to turn out how I wanted them to. I had talked to her before and she seemed pretty cool but you never know. Texting is just talk, you don't know anything about a person just by texting them.
I remember that very first day that we moved in. I got my key that morning and went up to my new apartment and nothing was there so I went home. Several hours later I came back and all of her stuff was set up and she was all settled in. I remember being so jealous because all of her stuff was so cute and she had all of these pictures set up and stuff. I then went to go find all of my new roommates and it has just gone down hill from there!
Kirsten has become one of my best friends. She can tell when something is wrong and she tries to do whatever she can to make my day better. She always lets me come to her when all I need is a good cry and some comforting words, and she is great at comforting. And I may or may not have ruined some of her shirts with mascara stains, woops.
I don't think she knows how much I love her and how much she has helped me without even knowing it.
I have no idea what I am going to do without my Kirsten. I can't believe we only have 33 more days together! She is going to be a fantastic RA for her girls next year and I know that she will always be there for them just like she has been for me.
Today I am grateful for Kirsten
I love you Kirsten!!!
Love,
Christina
Before school started I was so nervous because I didn't know what living away from my family would be like and I was terrified that my roommates would hate me or think that I was annoying. I was scared that we wouldn't get along. Especially the person that I had to share a room with. I was so scared that things weren't going to turn out how I wanted them to. I had talked to her before and she seemed pretty cool but you never know. Texting is just talk, you don't know anything about a person just by texting them.
I remember that very first day that we moved in. I got my key that morning and went up to my new apartment and nothing was there so I went home. Several hours later I came back and all of her stuff was set up and she was all settled in. I remember being so jealous because all of her stuff was so cute and she had all of these pictures set up and stuff. I then went to go find all of my new roommates and it has just gone down hill from there!
Kirsten has become one of my best friends. She can tell when something is wrong and she tries to do whatever she can to make my day better. She always lets me come to her when all I need is a good cry and some comforting words, and she is great at comforting. And I may or may not have ruined some of her shirts with mascara stains, woops.
I don't think she knows how much I love her and how much she has helped me without even knowing it.
I have no idea what I am going to do without my Kirsten. I can't believe we only have 33 more days together! She is going to be a fantastic RA for her girls next year and I know that she will always be there for them just like she has been for me.
Today I am grateful for Kirsten
I love you Kirsten!!!
Love,
Christina
A New Beginning
Dear You,
I've had several blogs in the past couple years. One that only I can see, that has maybe two posts on it, one that others can see but mostly has poetry on it, and the last one, one that most would not consider to be a blog but really it is, Tumblr. This blog, however, will be totally different.
My goal is to record at least one thing that I am grateful for each day. I struggle a lot and I think this project will help. If you would like to follow me through my journey to happiness then go right ahead, if not I will try to not be too offended.
Love,
Christina
I've had several blogs in the past couple years. One that only I can see, that has maybe two posts on it, one that others can see but mostly has poetry on it, and the last one, one that most would not consider to be a blog but really it is, Tumblr. This blog, however, will be totally different.
My goal is to record at least one thing that I am grateful for each day. I struggle a lot and I think this project will help. If you would like to follow me through my journey to happiness then go right ahead, if not I will try to not be too offended.
Love,
Christina
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